I am on CD3 today and as the title says, we failed on our second round of clomid (ovamit). Today is also my first day to take ovamit 3x a day again for 5 days. All in all, another set of 150mg ovamit this cycle. Good thing OB gave me prescription since it is a long weekend due to the voting period. Tomorrow, I will go back to OB for check up and schedule of my puregon shot. OB wanted me to take that shot because my follies are a little bit lazy growing up at the same time and last cycle I produce only 1 dominant follicle unlike my first round of ovamit to which I have 5 dominant follicles.
Last cycle was suppose to be our first ever artificial insemination (intra-uterine insemination-IUI) but it was cancelled as explained in my last post. We pray that this time around, we'll push through with the IUI. First thing I did was to give up my candy crush saga. Yes, funny, but I have to because it is adding up on my stress like last cycle I only have 1 dominant follicle, very poor for an IUI procedure, and if this will happen (hope it will not) again this cycle then most probably IUI will be terminated again. Why? Because OB says I have to produce 2 or more follicles to undergo with the IUI. Thus, goodbye candy crush saga.
Secondly, I stopped taking charge of my infertility like waking up at 5:00 in the morning to take my BBT, charting it with fertility friend, counting the days, etc., etc. I can say that it helps for me because the more I take charge on our infertility issues, the more pressure and stress, not to mention depression, I take. I just wanted a normal life while battling our TTC ordeal.
Lastly and most importantly, aside from going to Lolo Uweng every Friday, we pray together with DH. We had our 9 days novena starting from CD1 this cycle. Last cycle, I started doing the 9 days novena to Father Pio. I have 2 of them last cycle but this time, my DH joined me and we agreed to do it everyday which means that after 9 days novena will start again in day 1 and so on and so forth. In our every downfall, stress, pain and depression we had in this TTC journey, what we have learned is to offer everything to Father God. We know God is listening and we have to wait for our perfect time. It will come, we know one day it will come.
So, here again is our breakdown of expenses last cycle. Note that the fertility drugs, check ups and procedure is only in my case.
- Ovamit (3x a day for 5 days - P100.00 x 15) - P1,500.00
- Decilone (1/4 tab a day for 8 days - P25.25 x 2)- 50.50
- Premarin (2x a day for 20 days - P33.25 x 40) - 1,330.00
- Duphaston (1x a day for 12 days - P60.00 x 10)- 600.00
- Check Ups (P600 x 3) - 1,800.00
- TVS - 2,130.00
- TOTAL - P 7,410.50
To add our expenses above, DH started taking ovamit 1 tablet a day for 22 days when his count drastically dropped. A total of P2,200.00.
TTC is really a pain: emotionally, physically, mentally and financially. But when we think of what this pain will bring to me and DH in that God's most precious perfect time, we just shrugged it off, then we start to believe, hope and pray that nothing is impossible in God's hand, He will provide.
