I'm on CD1 today after 32 days cycle and first round of my fertility drugs (ovamit, decilone, premarin, metformin and duphaston). DH and I had high hopes last cycle but God says it is not yet our time. Still, we did feel the pain in our hearts but not as bitter as the other so many months and years of expecting that we finally conceive our child.
On my two week wait (2ww), I thought this is it because my body feels unusual things unlike my other 2wws plus the fact that I'm on work up this cycle. But then again, my body fooled me for the nth time and had us on high hopes only to be saddened at the end of my cycle. My BBTs for 2ww where so high that I have been sick for days but the funny thing is I'm only sick in the mornings then literally hot in the afternoon and at night. But and but...AF came and our first round of fertility drugs failed. Below is my BBT chart for the last cycle. For the first time, while on work up, my BBT did not fluctuate. Beautiful, isn't it? Only, the temperature drops at the end.
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| BBT for March 8 to April 8, 2013 |
I was not really surprise to see AF this morning because on my CD32, and as I have said above, my BBT suddenly drops which signals the end of my cycle but I was praying hard that maybe my BBT thermometer just committed a mistake or whatever reason it is for my BBT to drop. Yet, on my mind, AF is coming. It is not my first time to encounter such drop in my BBT on 2ww. I prayed to Father God to help us conceive but I also told Him that if it is not our time yet His will be done. Then AF came, we were saddened, of course, we felt the usual pinch in our hearts but DH and I faced this so called ordeal, bravely and much stronger, together as one. We will and will soon defeat this TTC ordeal. We have faith and we know God will provide us the desires of our hearts in His most precious perfect time.
DH and I will be moving on to our next plan and will be trying for the very first time artificial insemination this cycle which is called Intrauterine Insemination (IUI). I will be going to OB tomorrow, April 10 (CD2), for another round of fertility drugs until such time OB will schedule our IUI.
3 comments:
This journey must have really cost you a lot my dear. GL in your upcoming IUI. Just sending loads of baby dusts from Saudi Arabia!
Always remember, Gifts from God always in a surprise. Believe and be patience. He will give it you the most precious gift we are been waiting in our lives, but in his own and in his right time. A lot of women struggling this kind of fight, just don't stop fighting, keep on moving with positive mind set and believe you will have and later you know its there. Remember those BFNs have own reasons why? I lost my first born child, still there a reason why? we know its hard to accept those suffering and pain but just remember GOD ALWAYS HAVE HIS OWN REASON, which we will never know what is it. We just have to accept those, More Good lucks, God Bless you both.
thanks sis Lenggai (myjourneytoconception). lots of baby dusts to you also. :)
sis imanjchangeles, thank you to you too for that inspiring words from a mom who have lost his son and expecting another miracle. you take care on your pregnancy. :)
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